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Marteika Elaine
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just gonna say this: if someone has social anxiety and they ask you something akin to ‘are you mad at me’ or ‘do you hate me’, it isn’t because they don’t trust you, it’s because their brain literally tells them that all the time

it’s not a personal slight, it’s insecurity caused by mental illness



My name is Marteika Elaine

I am a different woman than when I woke up this morning.

This morning, I woke up a scared, helpless shell of a woman who didn’t know what she wanted out of life. I thought I knew what I wanted. I thought I wanted a husband and a nice house and a few kids. All of these things would be great to have someday, but that’s not what I want any more.

What I want is to be strong. I want to know that I have flaws and embrace them instead of running from them or trying to hide them. I want to smile at myself in the mirror –every- time I look in it, and like what I see regardless of the number on my bathroom scale. I want to love without expecting anything in return. I want to help others be great. I want to be great. I want to make a difference in people’s lives as well as my own. I want to live my life limitless. I want to excel in –anything- I set my mind to. Because I can. I will.

I –do- know that I have flaws. And from this point on, I will address my flaws as they are. I will accept the things I cannot change and I will have courage to change the things that I can.

I –will- smile at myself –every- time I look in the mirror from this moment on because I am a goddess. Regardless of the number on my bathroom scale.

I will eat to live. I will not live to eat.

I will take care of myself.

I –will- love. I will stop expecting things in return.

I do not need the approval of others. If I need approval I will get it from myself. If I do not approve, I will make the changes necessary until I do approve.

I will help others be great. Only if I have helped myself first or are capable. This will make us both great.

I –am- great. I am not perfect. I am phenomenal.

I will make a difference in my own life and continue to do so while in turn, making a difference in other’s lives. The ones who need it.

I will stop pushing help onto people who do not want my help.

I will live my life limitless and free. I will answer only to myself.

I do realize the value of my life and the things I have accomplished and will continue to excel in whatever I put my mind and hard work into. Because I can.

I am Marteika Elaine. That is exactly who I want to be.


also can we stop pretending skinny shaming is on the same level as fat shaming? im against shaming people’s bodies no matter what and i think doing so is disgusting but thin bodies are still far more accepted and catered to and it’s important to acknowledge that




starting today all blogs without the following image will be deleted within 24 hours


i’m not even afraid of deletion. i just want this image on my blog


There’s a difference between somebody who wants you and somebody who would do anything to keep you.

Remember that.

Teacher: How much is a gram?
Me: Shit, Depends on what you want..
And God said “Love Your Enemy,” and I obeyed him and loved myself.

━ خليل جبران ‎ (via bl-ossomed)



if someone tells you you’re beautiful, you tell them they are too. if someone says they love you, decide if they mean it before you say it in return. if a boy tells you he’d date you if you didn’t smoke, light a cigarette and walk away. if your mother screams at you because she’s had a bad day, close your eyes and leave her to her anger. if last nights lover doesn’t call you back, do not cry and blame yourself.

This is important

I either eat too much or starve myself. Sleep for 14 hours or have insomniac nights. Fall in love very hard or hate passionately. I don’t know what grey is. I never did.

━ (via jasfuckinq)
I do not desire mediocre love. I want to drown in someone.

shinwus (via perfect)
If you’re sad, add more lipstick and attack.

━ Coco Chanel. Consider it done.  (via dahlia—noir)


If you think a girl is cute and awesome and really cool and genuinely like her but won’t date her because she’s chubby or fat and you don’t want people to judge you for it then please remember you’re a piece of shit okay, promise